Month: December 2009

Thank you mom..

A close friend just landed an offer. We are all searching for full time jobs and the search has been far from fruitful in most cases except for this friend who has received an offer from the place she interned in the summer. Oh and its a very good offer..

Hence, day before yesterday was a very happy day. And I had called up family to convey the good news. Now, I was mentally prepared for the ‘oh.. that’s great, but what’s the situation with you’ question which can be pretty annoying. It goes down to history, all the mistakes you could have committed, like in my case, I could have done a normal internship etc and blah blah..

Yeah, obviously I do know the many things I ‘could’ have done. But, lets not get into that..

So, mom picked up.. I gave her the news and she said that’s great. :) And we had a nice congratulatory talk and we moved on to the next subject. PERIOD..

There was no talk about my search. She knew I was trying hard and I wanted it as much as anyone else.. she didn’t compare, she didn’t question..

That silence on the topic was priceless. I haven’t been able to thank her for it.. haven’t been able to express how much that meant. The fact that she did not mention it showed her utmost confidence in me.. and her acceptance of me for who I am and for what I have done, and an acceptance of the decisions I have taken for. You see, these are tough times even if I have been confident of the rights in what I have done… these times shake that confidence..

And having my mother’s silent reassurance meant more to me at that moment than anything else in the world. There was a lot said in that moment, unintentionally..

The moment passed, I did not mention it to her.. until today when the rest of my family brought this up and those inevitable questions came up questioning the past.. but I kept my cool.. There was a searing impulse to snap, but just the thought of my mother’s reassurance calmed me down..

Thank you mom. I can’t express that meant from me. I guess I have gotten so used to you that I forgot to even acknowledge it but a whiff of the real world and I realized what I had been missing..

Thank you.. I love you! :)